Brave Adventure

Brave Adventure

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

20 Months

Happy 20 Months, Buddy!


Fun facts for month twenty:

Weight: -
Height: - 

Eating: 3 meals a day, 1-2 snacks (he will eat any time you offer him food)

Sleeping: all night, two naps a day (although headed toward 1 nap)

Diapers: size 4

Clothing: 12-18 months, 18 months



What's new for month twenty:  
  • He says, "hold this", "awesome!", "egg", "yogurt", "toast", "flower", "bowl", "cracker", "goldfish", "spoon"
  • He can feed himself with a spoon pretty well. We have wasted a lot of yogurt learning this task! He even likes to pick up peas, put them on his spoon, and eat it.
  • He is very opinionated about his food.
  • He is very loving. 
  • He is good with a fork, but not as good with the spoon (it seems a will power issue rather than a motor skills issue because sometimes he can do it) 
  • His favorite game is saying, "I love you TOOOOO" which is precious
  • His hair is growing crazy fast and is already needing a second haircut 
  • He likes to make his sister laugh by being silly
  • He is adventurous
  • He is still afraid of dogs
  • He loves to run and saying "NUNNING!" while he goes - the same goes for jumping "JUMP JUMP JUMP!"
  • He is cuddly and loves his mommy and daddy, he loves all of his family
  • He likes to scribble (he could do it before, but now he actually likes it)





Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Doing Life



Sometimes just getting up and doing life feels brave. Sometimes you are dreading the moment someone needs you and tiny hands climb you for the rest of the day. It's exhausting. Even without feeding them, disciplining them, guiding their hearts, speaking truth, cleaning up messes, all the touching is just exhausting.

Now I am an extrovert so I never thought I needed alone time. I love seeing people, talking to people, being with people. Being alone makes me feel depressed and isolated. Everyone is different, there is no wrong way to be, but this is me. Yet in the midst of all the touching and needing from the kiddos, I get some alone time needs. I also get adult time needs. Like, I need to speak to an adult or I will explode type needs. Like, if I do not get to put on real clothes and eat without having to wipe someone's face, I may have a meltdown.

So when I get up in the morning, the kids aren't up yet, but I already feel like my love/patience/touchometer is already in the "you're pushing it" zone, I have to live bravely. I have to turn to the Father and beg Him for more. I have to ask for wisdom from Him "who gives generously to all without reproach" (James 1). I have to live out the choice of love even when the feeling is not all there. Well, I guess I don't have to, but I get to and I want to.





Sunday, August 2, 2015

Living Brave

Recently, I have been thinking even more about living brave. Taking another step. I have been thinking about what it means to live brave in vulnerability. It is so hard to let people in to the truth of your life. It is so easy to show people what you want them to see, to make them think you have life all together. And then, when we look at our own life, we live in shame because we are the only ones who do not have it together. We tell our friends we are "fine" or "good", we only speak on the surface level. This is not me saying that you need to go show your baggage to everyone, but this is me saying that you need to find a community, a trusted few. Be brave, be vulnerable.

So, I'd like to start a series. I would like to have you help me define what it means to be brave, what that looks like in your life. Would you be willing to step out and help me figure this out?

Monday, July 20, 2015

19 Months

Happy 19 Months!
Corban is officially closer to 2 than 1 now! Ah!
Fun facts for month nineteen:
Weight: -
Height: - 
Eating: 3 meals a day, 1-2 snacks (he will eat any time you offer him food)
Sleeping: all night, two naps a day (although headed toward 1 nap)
Diapers: size 4
Clothing: 12-18 months, 18 months

What's new for month nineteen:  
  • He says "blueberries", "blackberries", "outside" (did I already say that one?), "dedekah" (Rebekah), "shoes", "dog", "cat", "duck", "cow", "all done", "up please", "diaper", "cup", "trees", "Isaiah", "DD", "Gigi", "Pop", "Papa", "Lulu", "Chellst" (I don't know why Chelle gets an st at the end of her name sometimes), "Geoff", "Stella", "Dwew" (Drew), "poopoo" (while pointing at his diaper - good sign!), and so many more
  • He is trying to say almost any word we ask of him
  • He is doing a lot of animal sounds now
  • He says "yeeaaaaah" to about any question
  • He is getting tougher, as in even though he still loves to put his head in danger, it bothers him less when he falls down
  • He is very talkative
  • He is getting better at eating vegetables
  • He loves to say, "I love YOOOOOUUUUUUUU" and laugh
  • He can point to his nose, mouth, belly button, feet, hands, toes, head, eyes (on someone else), ears, and we are working on shoulders
  • He is getting tall enough to climb on furniture and grab things off the counter
  • He had his first haircut and his first bloody nose (running into an open door)
  • He can safely get downstairs
  • He is so sweet and cuddly
  • He loves his sister deeply
  • He loves to give me raspberries
  • He has so many funny sounds he likes to make 
  • He loves to roll the cars really fast and laugh (while trying to do a version of a car noise)
  • He loves any kind of fast movement, throwing, or swinging
  • We are reading a lot these days - his favorite books are the clock/time book (praying at different times a day book), the Baby Sees... book, the Little Blue Truck, Pride & Prejudice babylit, and Sense & Sensibility babylit
  • He is running everywhere and can climb stairs pretty well. If you hold both hands, he even takes them one step at a time. 
  • We were out of town when he actually turned 19 months and coming back together was so fun. We definitely missed each other and had lots of cuddles to make up for lost time.  
  • Honestly I took very few pictures this last month because we have just been on the GO so much. 

Friday, June 12, 2015

18 Months

Happy 18 Months! 
Fun facts for month eighteen:
Weight: -
Height: - 
Eating: 3 meals a day, 1-2 snacks (he will eat any time you offer him food)
Sleeping: all night, two naps a day (although headed toward 1 nap)
Diapers: size 4
Clothing: 12-18 months, 18 months

What's new for month seventeen:  
  • He says "I do", "cheese" (as in smiling for pictures), "bowl", "me", "bubble" and is combining lots of words "no, thank you" "yes please" "hi daddy" "bye bye daddy", "I le doo" (I love you)
  • He is trying to say almost any word we ask of him
  • If I say, "Guess what?" He says "I le doo!" because I always say that to him :)
  • He is correctly answering questions with yes or no
  • He is saying please when he wants more! Less tantrums! He is also pointing and saying please to show us if he wants something different. 
  • When he greets or says goodbye to anyone, he tacks "daddy" on the end. It doesn't matter who you are or if daddy is even present. 
  • He can point to his nose, mouth, and belly button (he is working on his feet)
  • He loves to give me raspberries
  • He blows kisses for fun
  • He has so many funny sounds he likes to make 
  • He grunts and points when he wants to talk about something
  • He says "no, no, no, no" and points if he wants something (trying to teach him to say "please" instead)
  • He loves to roll the cars really fast and laugh (while trying to do a version of a car noise)
  • He loves any kind of fast movement, throwing, or swinging
  • He does "moo" for the cow, "nay!" (high pitched) for the horse, and a funny gutteral noise that is meant to sound like rawr for bears and lions
  • We are reading a lot these days - his favorite books are the clock/time book (praying at different times a day book), the Baby Sees... book, the Little Blue Truck, Pride & Prejudice babylit, and Sense & Sensibility babylit
  • He is getting more aggressive since his threenager sister has been a bit aggressive with him - we are trying to teach them both that it's not the best way to deal with conflict. 
  • He loves the sandbox and the little pool/slide combo
  • His hair is getting much longer! 
  • He is running everywhere and can climb stairs pretty well. If you hold both hands, he even takes them one step at a time. 








Art that surprises






In college I loved taking all of the classes in my Russian minor. I fell in love with this language, but also the culture. I took one class all about Russian art throughout many different periods of time. We looked at paintings, read plays, and more. It was such an incredible class with a quirky, hilarious teacher.

One artist that I became deeply interested in was Mikhail Vrubel. He had such an interesting way of using colors, showing dimensions, and everything he did had a haunting quality about it. He had a series of paintings having to do with a "demon" that really took my breath away. Above is just one of that series and was always my favorite. Everything about this painting pulls me in and says something to me. It also really challenges all of my ideas of what a demon would look like and even feel like. I love how you get a window into someone's mind when you see their work.

Tamara dancing for the demon. It seems weird to me that I am so captivated by a series of artwork that relies so heavily on a demon, but none of them seem dark like I would expect. They are so haunting and yet so beautiful. Maybe that's what demons are really like. They are the fallen angels of God, are they not? Beautiful to behold, but darkened by the fall.




The Swan Princess. This one is not one of the demon related ones, but still has some of those same aspects. This woman is incredibly beautiful, yet haunting and dark. I cannot even put it into words. I hope you enjoy his work as much as I did.




Join me as I tackle 300 writing prompts! Today's prompt - What is your favorite work of art and what do you love about it?

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Surviving 3

The flames lit on their little heads and bravely and dangerously went they onward. - Garrison Keillor

Lately, I have lost a bit of my theme for this year. My husband and I decided on two words that would sum up how we wanted to live this year - Brave. Adventure. We mean it in so many ways too - physically, emotionally, spiritually. We want to be all in, living life to the fullest.

But something happened that changed things a bit....RB turned 3.

Now this may not sound like a big deal to you, but something in my little one turned on that has changed our lives. She has discovered how to be defiant. We are dealing with more meltdowns (usually for not getting what she wants or not being quite old enough/big enough to accomplish a task) than ever before. It is one of the hardest seasons I have ever been through with her. I have started to feel like she may have some sensory needs (though not as extreme as many) that need to be met, we are changing discipline styles right now, and her little brother is old enough to get in her way a bit more. It's a hard time for my little girl who does not like change. She is changing and I think she really does not understand how to handle it any more than I do. We are both stuck handling an overabundance of emotion without knowing exactly the healthy outlets. So we are working on it, we are teaching, we are trying to be patient/gentle/kind, but it is hard y'all.

So I want to be honest that in the crazy I have lost site of being brave and having an adventure. I have turned into survival mode and am having a hard time turning that off. Here's to rededicating. Here's to going on walks, splashing in puddles, learning about Jesus, exploring hard questions, meeting our neighbors, trying new food, sharing the Gospel, making forts, and sleeping in tents. Here's to our brave and adventure.

But also, here's to realizing that this new phase of her life is a part of our brave adventure. Loving our kiddos with patience, kindness, gentleness, and dolling out unconditional love like it grows on trees is one of the bravest things I have ever had to do. I cannot control her responses to me and have heard many phrases from her mouth that have hurt my heart, but I will continue loving. I will be brave to love her when she cannot receive it nor appreciate it. I will be brave to give more chances, extend grace, and find healthy outlets for my own emotions and triggers. I will be brave to find a discipline style that works for her while communicating grace and love simultaneously. I will bring adventure into our lives. I will not let the difficulties overwhelm me where I no longer enjoy being all in for my children. I will not check out. I will chase bad guys, build caves, read books, pick flowers, and have adventures big and small with my littles. I will help them have big imaginations. I will help them play with each other and show them that not all adventures require mommy even if that hurts my pride a bit.

So here we go. Let's get back on this brave adventure.