Sunday, December 6, 2009
It is currently after midnight making it 12 days until Cal and I's Wedding day. We have one more important meeting and a few little details until the whole thing is complete. How crazy it is to be this close to finally being a Mrs.! (I'm not sure if the . and then the ! is technically correct or not) My bedroom at home (currently my parents home) is beginning to look a little sadder due to the lack of familiar things present. Paddy (my dad) doesn't quite agree, but that's because all of my posessions are, in true Claire character, currently all over the floor. However, my bed is gone (I'm sleeping on the down stairs double bed mattress with my twin bed comforter on the floor, this is exactly like my college arrangement ironically), all but 1 of my instruments are gone, over half of my clothes are gone, I have less than 10 pairs of shoes in my closet (if you know me well- whoa.), my desk is clear, the drawers are cleaned out and many things are gone. My "wedding corner" where I put all things wedding no longer looks like a corner because there are not things on both sides of it....awkward. But, no matter how weird it seems, as I stair at my ceiling which seems now much further away, I think how much closer this makes me to having a home with my best friend, my love, Cal.
To celebrate this moment, I thought I would share with you my latest thoughts on marriage/engagement:
I think that one thing I continually learn as we are engaged, and expect to learn after we're married, is that I am one selfish person. I mean, I don't necessarily go out of my way to be selfish to someone, nothing like that, but it just let's me know even just mentally how selfish I am. I don't want medicine to go in the kitchen because it "goes" in the bathroom. (except ibuprofen, acetaminophine and lactaid) I want the bathroom cleaned the "right" way and so many other silly little things. The great thing is that the more I am confronted with my selfishness, the more God helps me to learn how to be selfless. Marriage is such the perfect context for this lesson too! Especially right now when we're in the beginning, as Shareen would call it, "WOOO WOO" stages of love, (prayer dinner shout out!) I want nothing more than for Cal to be happy. I don't want to hurt him in any way! This helps me see that when we disagree about these little things, the toothpaste is squeezed in the middle until the last possible moment, or the shower curtain needs to be closed after ever use, that marriage is not about changing someone else, getting my own way, or teaching him how to meet my needs. It shows me that I am getting the privilege of considering someone else better than myself (I don't mean being a jerk to myself), wanting to do something for him, wanting to think of his needs, wanting to love him how he needs to be loved, and the even greater privilege of showing an unbelieving world that unconditional love really exists through Christ. God has given us the privilege of showing to the world the greatest picture of gospel we can partake in. How exciting that is! The more Cal and I read the Bible and all it has to offer on marriage as well as some Godly books (with some awesome influences of Godly couples), the more I am convinced of this privilege! This task, though a blessing, is kind of overwhelming and impossible to do perfectly. So, in our effort to show the Gospel to the world through our marriages, we are pushed closer to the Gospel because we cannot do it of our own strength. We have to rely on Christ. We have to ask God to change our hearts and our desires for they are not the same as God's. (Isaiah anyone?) But God is so faithful to do that. He is forgiving, and He helps us forgive. He loves unconditionally and He helps us love unconditionally. He works through us to show His Gospel. Praise the Lord.
Just a word on my brain.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
This last week I was so privileged to be with my sister, Lindsey, her husband, Drew, and their new little girl, Stella. I loved them- every moment. I really miss them, but I am so thankful that I was able to get them, see my niece, and help Lindsey even if it was only for a short time. I am also very thankful that Lindsey and Stella (shortly followed by Drew) will be coming in 2 weeks, so it won't be quite as long between visits this time! (You might pray for her as she is driving her 1 month old from Louisville, KY to Fort Worth, TX- at least 13.5hrs depending on who's driving.)
I am thankful that on either side of my trip to Kentucky, I was able to see my fiance and his lovely family. (my soon to be family!) We had a great time sorting through a lot of stuff we'd received from showers and deciding where to put things in our apartment- how fun to say is that? It's very fun for me and Cal. We had a good dinner last night and a great breakfast this morning. I am so blessed that I got to see him when I originally didn't expect to.
I am thankful for all the safe driving, despite the one small parking stint on the side of the road for my gimpy stomach to release its contents.
I am thankful for being able to come home from my long trip and be loved on by my family. They had lots of food prepared for our big fun family dinner and it was completely delicious. It was so great to get to talk to so many people and my cousins even came over later to see me! (and others I'm sure) We had a great time and we even looked at baby pictures. They're out because we are working on the wedding slideshow, so everyone had fun looking at embarassing photos of me. I will refrain from posting any of said pictures, but if you're friends with my dad on facebook there are some available in his "mobile uploads" section.
I am thankful for every one of the 23 days left until our wedding that we will get to enjoy with friends and family.
I am thankful for a sweet and considerate fiance that is daily a piece of sanity and calm nature in my crazy brain. He is such a Godly man, always pointing me in the right direction. I also am thankful for/love his consistency. I can be a very very loyal person, so his consistency and his devotion really does mean the world to me. (love you, nuke!)
I am also thankful for so many friends that have really impacted my life by allowing me to be a part of theirs this year. Thank y'all.
Signing off, this a big day of thanks and I hope that I have more than one of these days a year.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I loved being Belle (Joanna Jones made the lovely dress I was wearing) and seeing how everyone dressed, plus we had so much hanging out, playing games, and opening presents! I had to guess who bought me what gift, so hard!!
Then we had the first bridal shower in Fort Worth! The sweet Jennifer Hughens as well as 7 other wonderfully generous ladies hosted this party. I got to see so many sweet people that I hadn't seen in ages and have lots of wonderful conversations. We had petite fours (love!), punch in champagne glasses, sausage balls (mmmm), and lots of other goodies. The next shower we had was in Clinton, Mississippi! I got to meet so many people that had meant a lot to Cal and his family throughout his life. They all seemed like such sweet people and I look forward to getting to know them better. There were 13 hostesses all of whom did an amazing job putting together a beautiful shower. The cake was incredible!! (pictures to come) It was in the shape of a purse, shoes, and a shoe box. How fun!
Where is your cell phone? Couch
Your hair? Bun
Your mother? Lovely
Your father? Sarcastic
Your favorite food? potatoes
Your dream last night? Nightmare
Your favorite drink? Sprite
Your dream/goal? Ministry
What room are you in? Family
Your hobby? Everything
Your fear? Alone
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Texas (haha)
Where were you last night? Starbucks
Something that you aren’t? Spontaneous
Wish list item? Wedding
Where did you grow up? Texas
Last thing you did? Write
What are you wearing? Pajamas
Your TV? Bones
Your pets? Chaz
Your life? Busy
Your mood? Sick
Missing someone? Cal
Something you’re not wearing? shoes
Your favorite store? Target
Your favorite color? Green
When was the last time you laughed? Today
Last time you cried? Prayer Dinner
Your best friend? Cal
One place that you go to over and over? Church
One person who emails you regularly? Lindsey
Favorite place to eat? Home (parents)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Sandra Shoemaker, one of my favorite people in the world, through us a Prayer Dinner. What a wonderful way to encourage couples as they begin a marriage together! We got to eat dessert (yummmm), hang out with people I love and see often as well as people I don't see nearly enough (I was so blessed to see Shareen, it's been ages since I have gotten to see her) and then came the best part. These people, full of God's wisdom, gave us a blessing and a piece of advice for our marriage. There were definitely some tears shed and some tender moments shared. I loved every moment. All of those words were so special to us. Then at the end, a prayer was said over us. These people came, on purpose, with great intent, to help us center our marriage on the Lord because they know, from experience, that is the only way we can succeed. Our marriage is first and foremost about God and all He has done. He is the one who makes "two become one flesh", that is not a human possibility, He is the one we are reflecting in our marriage. He has allowed us to be tangible evidence for love He has to offer. What a privilege! In this way, all these people were reminding Cal and I that, although it will be difficult, there is such blessing in a marriage devoted to Christ. We are so privileged to have people that delight in the Lord and want to push us toward this end.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Last week I had my bridal portraits taken by the incredibly talented Hillary Anne and I had a blast. With the help of my mom, we carried my wedding dress all over downtown Fort Worth. My arms were definitely sore. I loved getting my hair done, having mom do my make up and all those fun things, but nothing quite matched the reaction of all the people we met downtown! People were so friendly, coming over to talk to us and complimenting my dress. It was so fun to interact with so many people! Once a bus pulled over and opened their doors to talk to me! I can't wait to see how the pictures turned out.
This weekend Cal and I took some engagement photos! They were done by one of my favorite people Lindsey Marette - if you want to see them just go here. Let us know which one is your favorite!
I also took the advice of my sister, Lindsey, and made a fall wreath. She inspired me. Cal has promised to post the picture of the wreath on our apartment door very soon. (Slash after he gets back from training this week)
I hope y'all are having a great week! This was my study break, so I'm back to studying!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
I have orientation tomorrow morning at 8am (does getting old mean you get up sooner?) and then they will "orient" me on all the things I need to know. I am already registered for two classes: Biblical Hermeneutics with Jason Lee and Student Ministry Culture and Relations (something like that) with Johnny Derouen. Exciting!
I am also beginning to finish up my final week at Tallowood Baptist Church and say goodbye to all the wonderful friends I have made. Many of these friends I'll still see at some point, the wedding, maybe a girly party in College Station, but it'll be weird not to see several of them daily. I wish I could just take them all with me back to Fort Worth. We have decided that this week we will celebrate every "last" that I have.
Happy Last Monday Everyone!