Brave Adventure

Brave Adventure

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Today

Today I am so overwhelmed by emotions and by people and by thoughts and by prayers. Today I am sitting in my living room, cuddled in a quilt my Papa helped make and my Nana gave me as I cry reading over so many of your wonderful promises to pray for my little girl and our family. Today I make myself get out of bed and get dressed, knowing that this afternoon will be a tough one. Today I put on my mommy jeans and my mommy arms and my mommy smile for a little girl who doesn't understand what all is going on. Today I am a little bit nervous. Today I am confidant in our heavenly Father. Today I trust in what I cannot see, today I hope in what I do not understand. Today above all else I pray. Today I am thankful for the body of Christ, for community. Today I am thankful for husbands. Today I know that God has made me for a time such as this, for this little girl, for this moment. Today I know that I can handle this because it is what I need to do. Today I listen to the silence of her sleeping and hope that the events of the afternoon are such that she will never remember. Today I will give in, I will indulge and I will spoil this little girl to my heart's content. Today I will make time for fun. Today I will tickle my daughter. Today I will not dwell in this temporary pain. Today God is faithful and can handle all that is in and on my mind. Amen.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Monday Musings



We loved our Thanksgiving break, but we are also happy to be home! Rebekah slept all night last night for the first time in 3-4 nights. I think she missed her bed. It is so much harder on babies to travel.

Baby girl met lots of new people and tried mango! Yummm. She got a couple new toys too,  yay grandparents!

RB really connected with my oldest sister.

My cousins have grown up!!

I feel conflicted about Christmas radio. On the one hand, I want to hear all the Christmas classics that I have always loved and am thrilled to hear them any time. On the other hand, I don't feel like Christian radio should play secular music no matter how fun (this includes How to Save a Life by The Fray or any other Christian-esque secular song). Just a thought.

The babe loooves finger food. And turning pages in books. And eating non-edible items.

How do I get into a play group?

Please be praying, tomorrow is RB's kidney test. Also keep my friend whose sister died in your prayers. His brother is in rough condition so it is a long, expensive road ahead (though he will make a full recovery).

I feel like despite all the joy that generally comes with this time of year, it is also a tough time for a lot of people.

I would like to do a crafty Christmas one year where everyone made all the gifts. It would be so heart felt!

Pictures from Thanksgiving to come!

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Held

Held

Sometimes life just does not make sense and it is hard to see God's plan or God's justice in circumstances. I feel baffled at times because I just don't get it. I just don't see how this can possibly for anyone's good or the right thing. I just have to go entirely on promise, entirely on God's Word. Romans 8:28-29. A friend of mine lost a family member today and has another in critical condition. While it wasn't an infant, this song has been ringing in my ears ever since. God is still in control, but I hate it.

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We're asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it's unfair
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held
If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held
If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held

Monday, November 19, 2012

Monday Musings






Just the smell of a Kit Kat makes me go crazy. I think Kit Kats taste better in fun size. I never buy them in full size, but really enjoy them at Hallowmation day (Halloween + Reformation Day). Yum. I also made trifle this weekend which was so tasty.

RB has been SO fussy and SO sleepy. I don't get it. Awesome moment of the day - I put a 6 month t-shirt on her today and it is very snug. It is actually... wait for it... too small. So excited about that. Baby girl is growing regardless of how I feel.

I have a pair of navy and white polka dot skinny trousers. They are just too awesome and made me feel amazing when I wore them. I won't tell you the size of the pants, but let's just say that it is a number I am so so proud of.

I am training for a half marathon and I'm scared to death about it.

I have been watching a silly ABC Family show.... my brain is rotting. 

RB officially has blue eyes!

I wish I had a personal trainer. I was working with a guy before Cal and I got married. That was the most in shape I have ever been or ever felt. I don't want a six pack, but I would like to be tone, you know?

This day has barely started and I'm already nervous about it. RB has been in fine form lately and I'm just nervous that today is going to be a torment. I am fervently praying that she will at least let me know why she is upset so that I can help fix it. I'm sometimes afraid that everyone reading this blog hears too much about the hard parts of mommyhood. I promise that I love it, but I also just can't lie to you and pretend like there are never hard days. I wouldn't trade it for anything, but that does not mean it's all roses. Some days I just want to take a benedryl and go back to bed.

We got some beautiful pictures weekend before last by the lovely Joy D. Here is a sneak peak:



I think that she does have a few qualities of mine if you look super close, but she is much more Cal's clone. We will see how she looks as she gets older!

Friday, November 16, 2012

8 Months

Happy 8 Months, Rebekah Blakely!





Fun facts for month eight:
Weight: Over 13 pounds!
Height: 25-26 inches (this girl will not sit still!) 
Eating: Every three to four hours during the day nursing and 3 meals a day with solids
Sleeping: Mainly 2 naps, and sometimes one rest where she won't sleep, but she needs to unplug for a little bit
Diaper: Size 2
Clothing: A little bit 3-6 month and 6 month
 
What's new for month eight:
  • She loves to sit and dive for toys! She is getting really good at reaching out for things and then getting back up without falling over. That being said, she loves things that are just out of reach and will launch herself (and I mean launch) into tummy time in order to get it. 
  • We have a tooth! She has one tooth that has come through on the bottom and a little corner of tooth out on the top. Who knows when that top tooth will come through though because it started way before the bottom one and still hasn't made any more progress. 
  • She definitely knows that I am Mama! She is babbling Dada but I think we are getting closer to knowing what that means.
  • She is experimenting with TONS of consonants. She is so talkative these days. 
  • She can pick up finger foods including puffs, sweet potatoes (that's a mess), and broccoli.
  • She prefers chunky food to soupy food. 
  • She loves to really examine everything. She will pick it up in one hand and turn it all around trying to really see all sides of it. 
  • She is trying so hard to crawl, but can definitely pivot in a 360. She hates tummy time so she will pivot around to wherever I am and try to get me to pick her up. 
  • She already does what is called the "parachute reaction" when you put her down on her tummy. 
  • She wants to pull up and stand really badly also but I am hoping she will crawl first since this is important to development. 
  • She loves music and singing. I have made up songs including every family member and we sing them while looking at their picture.
  • She loves to watch me eat....she laughs the whole time.
  • She is laughing a lot!
  • She hates tummy time these days. She is just so frustrated that she can't crawl! The closest thing we have to crawling is the launching.
  • She loves reading, reading, reading. 
  • She wants to be outside all day long! In any form I can provide it!
  • Favorite foods: Sweet Potatoes (all day long), prunes, bananas (off the table thanks to constipation), pears, and any pouch mix. 
  • You may have heard, but her kidney check up did not go well. Her left kidney has no change and her right kidney has gotten worse. We have scheduled a new test for her and are praying that God will reveal what's next. 
Some pictures for you!









Monday, November 12, 2012

Monday Musing

Today was a long day


It is finally time to go to bed and I am happy about that. I did a bit of cleaning, I hung out with a friend, I got to talk to my sister before she leaves the country, and then I played with the Babe. I am so lucky to get to play with her, I truly am. But sometimes she gets bored or angry or sleepy or just wants to be alone. That makes for a long day.

She is beginning to enjoy taking a bath since she can sit up and can play with her rubber duck. Maybe I should tell her that her favorite bath toy is cliche, but I think she isn't too concerned with what others think of her playing habits.

She likes butternut squash, but it's not her favorite. I think she really eats it because it's in a pouch. She is pretty fascinated by the pouch phenomena.

We had family portraits and RB's 8 month pictures taken on Sunday. Can you believe she will turn 8 months this week?! Whoa! I probably should not tell you any more about her so that you will read her 8 month update. Although, we are going to the Pediatric Urologist on Thursday and could really use your prayers. We would love for her to come off her medicine.

Do you have any rants for random things? I'm not talking politics, I'm talking silly, every day things.  I have a rant about Deja Blue water. I think it tastes gross and I have a personal distaste for all bottles with a sport cap. Cal has a rant about my inability to decide what food I want to eat when I am hungry (he just reminded me of this). Cal has a rant about Christmas music before Thanksgiving, I have a rant about the evil, incahootswiththedevil, tiny dog that lives down the street from us who likes to chase after me when I'm walking with the baby. I have a lot of rants. What are yours? I would like to know.


Thursday, November 8, 2012

Change My Life

What are the moments that made you realize your life was changed forever? I'm talking about after you got married, after you had a baby, whatever. There are those moments that change your life forever.



After I had Rebekah, I knew life would never be the same in my head, but I also thought that there would be a large degree of "normal" that would return. Wrong, haha. I didn't feel like a mommy right away. I thought I would come home and immediately feel like a mom. While I still love loved my daughter without any doubt, I still sometimes don't feel like a mommy. I'm her mommy, but I'm not what I think of when I think of a mom. Odd. Anyway...
So here are some moments where I realized that life would never be the same (not a bad thing):

I was mopping the floor the other day and it took me 3 swiffer mop pad things to clean up just around the table. I should have swept too because there were little crumbs of food all around her highchair.

The other day, she didn't wake up early and I did anyway.

I went to work with pureed banana smeared down my shirt and I didn't notice.

Last and best!

Today RB was sitting up and playing with her stacking cups with love. She decided to reach for a block and got a little too much momentum forward, so she fell over. Don't worry she wasn't hurt or anything, but she was upset. She had this super sad look on her face and then looked up and cried, "Mama!" before starting to cry. She knew me. I almost cried myself.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Monday Musings

Happy Monday!



My mom was here with me this weekend and she helped me decorate for Fall/Thanksgiving! This is the wreath we made and the super fragrant candles we bought. Mmmmm. You can't see, but on the other side is my beautiful red lantern that Stack gave me. We also have this centerpiece:


The burlap pumpkin on the left is my favorite thing that we found and centered everything around it! I also have this wreath that I made a couple years ago, and a beautiful pumpkin Cal and I made:








I also painted this over the summer with some friends but it is definitely fall colored so we hung it!




We got to try out some fun new restaurants too, all very healthy. The Hobbit Cafe (LOTR themed!! You know I loved it), Ruggles Green (we've already been there, but still super organic/healthy), and


Well, Fall seems to have left us again and it has been warm. Ugh. But my allergies didn't get the memo, so I spent the last week feeling pretty gross. Really missing Allegra-D right now. Then... it came back. Argh!

RB had a tooth poke out on Halloween! On the top! It's as if she is trying to tell me that absolutely nothing she does will be done according to the book. Top middle is her first tooth poking through, shakes head.

I have started NaNoWriMo. I was originally writing a non-fiction, but then realized that it was not a novel. So here goes restarting.

We have officially met the neighbors on either side of us! I have been trying to find time to make cookies to take them for over a week and finally got it all done (in stages of course). So last night we took some yummy cookies over and met some super sweet people. RB even seemed to really like them which is always a bonus. Here's hoping that our street becomes our ministry and that we can get to know more and more people!

I am making pumpkin scones today with a friend I haven't hung out with in forever.

Please go check out the Pink Project through Naturallyestes!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

The Pink Project



I have a friend over at Naturallyestes who is doing this amazing thing called The Pink Project! She has been burdened with a heart for women in Ethiopia who have been forced into the sex industry. 1 out 9 women, y'all. These women are in such extreme poverty that they are forced to participate in this degrading industry and many of them will die from contracting HIV/AIDS while in it. This breaks my heart! SO, what are we going to do? Brittany has made a video you should watch and has begun a project to raise $1600 to set 4 women free! When that money is raised, she will die her hair PINK! I am reposting the blog below, but definitely go check out her blog and grab her Pink Project button while you're there. You can donate on her blog also.


Pink hair is FUN.
Pink hair is a little SCANDALOUS.
BUT...
Pink hair now has a PURPOSE!

Pink hair now means FOUR women's lives have been changed! These women in Ethiopia have a right to life. A life outside of HIV/AIDS and the sex industry. They deserve to feel worthy, loved, and to love themselves. WE can be apart of that!


"Women and children are often the most exposed and abused victims of injustice, especially in the war-torn areas of Africa. In Nazaret, Ethiopia, Mocha Club helps rehabilitate women in Ethiopia who were forced into a life of prostitution as an attempt to escape their situation of poverty. The “Women At Risk” program provides spiritual, emotional, and psychological counseling and helps them find alternate means of income to support themselves and their children." The Mocha Club

Just a quick recap:

*I've kinda, secretly wanted to die my hair pink
*But now I'm making it count!
*The Mocha Club is an AMAZING organization!
*They help women in Ethiopia out of the sex industry
*It's a holistic approach (counseling, rehabilitation, job training, daycare, healthcare, etc.)
*$400 saves ONE woman
*I'm setting a goal to save FOUR!
*That's $1600
    ....which can easily be accomplished by:

1 donation of $1600
4 donations of $400
16 donations of $100
160 donations of $10


Let's make this happen! 
Give hope to women who need it so!