Brave Adventure

Brave Adventure

Friday, March 28, 2014

How old are we?

I have been reading a devotional online for a while called "SheReadsTruth". Now they have issued a sort of challenge for Fridays to be "SheSharesTruth". We have been in Jonah recently, and it has just been so great to see God reveal Himself in new ways despite my heart saying, "I already know that story." But God knew I needed to learn things from Jonah and He knew that I need to be sharpened/pruned a bit more.

Jonah 4 But it displeased Jonah exceedingly, and he was angry. And he prayed to the Lord and said, “O Lord, is not this what I said when I was yet in my country? That is why I made haste to flee to Tarshish; for I knew that you are a gracious God and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and relenting from disaster. Therefore now, O Lord, please take my life from me, for it is better for me to die than to live.” And the Lord said, “Do you do well to be angry?”

Jonah is mad at God for saving Nineveh. Isn't that hilarious? He's telling God, "I told you so!" "I knew it, I knew you would do this." Jonah would prefer that they did not receive grace and that they would, instead, receive their due. He might be quoting the Scripture He knows when He says that God is "slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love". Exodus 34:6, Numbers 14:18, Nehemiah 9:17, Psalm 86:15, Psalm 103:8...this is a refrain of the Old Testament. Jonah already knew this in His heart. So, why is he surprised?

I think that often we want God to be "slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love" toward us, but not toward those that we deem unworthy. He saw the Ninevites as sinners undeserving of grace. I hear the refrain of a little kid here. "But God! IIIIIII want grace, but they started it so they should get in trouble!" We like to point at Jonah and shake our heads, thinking that we are so unlike him. We are so thankful that God would offer grace to the Ninevites. We are thankful that He forgave. Because in this passage we can clearly see how this forgiveness can be extrapolated to His forgiveness of us. We want God to be loving toward us, to keep His anger at bay even when we sin. Yet, do we wish that for others? How old are we? I don't mean literally, but spiritually! Are we drinking milk or eating steak when it comes to God's Word? Are we seeking the lost, having a burden for those who live chained to sin? I'm not saying the Ninevites had no control over their actions, but they were chained to sin. We rejoice when God breaks those chains and forgives those who knew Him not. So let us go forth to those who have once called enemies, who have though did not deserve grace, and let's shout God's love at the top of our lungs. 

"GOOD NEWS FRIENDS! GOD IS SLOW TO ANGER AND ABOUNDING IN STEADFAST LOVE! RUN TO HIM! TURN TO HIM!" 

This should be our new refrain. The refrain of an adult in Christ, whose ways and thoughts have been turned to the ways and thoughts of the Creator God.

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

My Sweet 2 Year Old

Happy 2nd Birthday, Rebekah!

From my tiny baby



To my sweet 2 year old!
It's crazy to think that I have a two year old on my hands. She is so vibrant and lovely. I love her personality and just everything about her! Of course, nothing is ever perfect, but she comes awfully close. 

Fun facts for month twenty-four:
Weight: 25lbs 10 oz (so if you look back and realize it used to say 28lbs, apparently my urologist's scale and my pediatrician's scale are vastly different)
Height: 30+ inches
Eating: 3 meals a day and 1-2 snacks 
Sleeping: 2 Naps during the day (although sometimes it is 1 rest and 1 nap)
Diaper: Size 4 diapers
Clothing: 18 months and 24 months (she actually fits into some 2T pants - crazy)

What's new for month twenty-four:
  • She thinks that she is really funny
  • She loves puzzles sooo much!
  • She can speak in some simple sentences now
  • She can put her shoes on and take them off (although not always the correct foot)
  • She has her colors mostly down
  • She is an excellent climber
  • She is getting really good at communicating what she is trying to say
  • She loves going outside and picking flowers - she says "more flowers!"
  • She tries to blow the seeds off the dandelions (when they are the white poof), but if she fails she just picks them off and throws them into the air
  • She loves her little brother and he loves her too!
  • Reading, reading, reading!
  • She is such a helper, she can say "help you" and "helper chair" (the step stool) when she wants to help me in the kitchen
  • She likes to bake!
  • She likes to pretend


















So...my kid doesn't like ice cream...

























Wednesday, March 12, 2014

3 Months

Happy 3 Months!


Fun facts for month three:
Weight: 14+lbs
Height: 24+inches
Eating: Every 2-3hrs during the day, Once or...NONE at night!
Sleeping: Off and on
Diaper: Size 2 diapers
Clothing: 3-6 months

What's new for month three:
  • OH my goodness this little man's smile just melts my heart
  • He is making some super sweet sounds when I am playing with him
  • He is grabbing at some toys and trying to eat them, he tries to eat me as well haha
  • He stops crying if I sing to him
  • He likes to "dance" (I move his arms and legs around to music)
  • He likes to sit up in the Bumbo seat
  • He is doing better at tummy time! 
  • He loves toys that make jingle sounds
  • He only poops every few days
  • He has started to be happy when he's awake
  • He likes a variety in his books - he gets bored reading the same book too often and gets upset
  • He is now napping in the crib or pack-n-play and not as happy with the bouncy seat for nap time - this is a transition I am happy about! (although, let's be real he would prefer to sleep on me)
  • He loves to follow RB around with his eyes and has started letting her give him the paci
  • He loves to be rocked
  • He keeps trying to push off of things with his feet





Monday, March 10, 2014

Re-post

I have had this weird feeling lately. I have been coming expectant to the Word, I have been coming expectant to the community of believers, and God has been shaping me intensely. He has been pruning expectations in a way that I can only describe as painful. He is changing me. It's not just having two kids, it's so much more than that. It's taking Him seriously, and Him shaping me seriously. But the problem has been an inability to put what is happening precisely into words. I am usually quite loquacious, but have been unable to find the correct sentences to put this into words. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to move from here. I don't know what God will call me to next or what He will say to me next. I don't know what the pruning means, but I have finally put two words to some things I have been feeling - yearning, longing. I am yearning and longing for change. Then in today's devotional from Shereadstruth, they echoed my heart. So I'd like to pass it on to you:

“If you don’t feel strong desires for the manifestation of the glory of God, it is not because you have drunk deeply and are satisfied. It is because you have nibbled so long at the table of the world. Your soul is stuffed with small things, and there is no room for the great.”
-John Piper, A Hunger for God
We had suffered a severe loss – our baby daughter – and we were sitting at our kitchen table with an older couple who had a similar loss two decades earlier. I’ll never forget how she described the feeling I hadn’t been able to put into words: “Losing a child makes you feel less bolted down to Earth. We are being weaned – our longings are changing.
I think fasting can have a similar effect. In fact, I believe it’s meant to.
Fasting isn’t about inflicting pain upon our bodies and it’s not about removing sin from our lives – the latter would be repentance and should not be limited to a season. Biblical fasting is a withholding of things – good things – that have taken a too-important role in our lives. Fasting is about dependance. 
Losing a child is an extreme example, but it shows us that often, it takes extreme circumstances to awaken us to our need for our Savior – to wean us from our earthly comforts. Fasting is a way of awakening that need – a way of saying I’m not hungry for God the way I want to be – I have too many comforts tuning out my need for Him and I want to silence something loud for a season in an effort to shift that dependance to Christ. 
The kind of fasting I’m talking about is the practice of removing distractions. An elimination of good things that have become too important. Sometimes fasting involves food, but certainly not always. It could be a season where you read no other books but the Bible, or when you spend your evening television time in prayer.
Wherever there is a subtraction, let there also be an addition.
When you remove a comfort, apply a discipline.
Wherever you find success in your efforts, thank the Lord.
And wherever you fail, thank Him also. For there you will discover your great need for Him.
Luke 6:21 says, “Blessed are you who are hungry now, for you shall be satisfied.”
In Psalm 73:25, 26 David says, “Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
While Lent is not biblically mandated, repentance is. We don’t need a date on the calendar to tell us it’s time to free fall into the arms of our all-satisfying Savior; but this season of approaching the cross is in so many ways a process of emptiness to fullness. It is timely for us to consider where our affections lie – what earthly pleasures distract us from heavenly ones.
Are you feeling bolted down to Earth, comfortably satisfied with a life that has little need for a Savior? Or are you achy and empty, ready to drink in the living water that can satisfy you forever?
“And the Lord will guide you continually
and satisfy your desire in scorched places
and make your bones strong;
and you shall be like a watered garden,
like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail.”
Isaiah 58:11

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Wrecked

Recently I have been feeling...wrecked.

Wrecked in a Jesus sort of way though. Each song, each service, I'm just in tears half the time. I tried to blame it on hormones, but I think it's really more than that. I think God is doing something in my heart and I just cannot put my finger on it. There are so many things swirling around in my head and heart these days that I cannot even seem to put them in proper writing. However, this song in particular has just seemed to be an anthem for me, it seems to put into words something I cannot, it seems to get to the heart of the matter in a way. I have been singing it off and on to my children recently even...

You bring restoration
You bring restoration
You bring restoration
to my soul

You've taken my pain
called me by a new name
You've taken my shame
and in it's place, You give me joy


You take mourning and turn it into dancing
You take weeping and turn it into laughing
You take mourning and turn it into dancing
You take my sadness and turn it into joy